Timeline meme

Thought of revamping this because i have had more selves lately than I have drawn. 

Age 6:
Okay at this age I was pretty normal I guess, but also my autism was incredibly noticeable. I was socially awkward, and very phonophobic, and I hardly had any friends. That's okay though because I always had my stuffed animals, my cousins, and my parents. Always and forever creative. I had many OC's at that age (or "imaginary friends") but I hardly remember who they were or what they were supposed to look like. I liked wearing anything comfortable, and dresses and bows were a huge no-no for me. I was kind of a brat, but I didn't know better. 

Age 11: 
This part of me actually started at age 9, but I decided to round it out to age 11 because that was around the middle of the part of me where it was most relevant. I was very reserved and secretive, and I had a lot of stuff going on in my home life because my dad made some bad decisions. I was very lonely, and I started to realize how socially awkward I really was in my younger years and was ashamed of it, so I kinda laid low. I blamed a lot of people's problems on myself, but I wasn't completely depressed. I wore my hair in ponytails all the time because my hair was so long and heavy and I hated sitting on it. I also wore a lot of hoodies and graphic tees and hid behind my bangs. I had a few spiritual phases at this age including ghosts and Christianity, which I was pretty out about. People surely thought I was a weirdo at that point, which I guess is why I don't talk about my beliefs much anymore. This phase lasted from around the middle of 4th grade to the beginning of 7th. 

Age 13: 
This part of me actually started when I was around 12 and a half, and ended a few months after I turned 14. I started middle school, and decided to talk more to those who decided to talk to me, and those I already had some affiliation with. I opened up a lot. I talked about my OC's, and people were interested and wanted to get to know them and me more. I was kind of insecure with my looks, but my life was very happy. I had a few mood swings from time to time, but nothing incredibly serious. I finally moved out of my dad's and in with my mom full time at this time, and went though lots of "home stuff" during the beginning of it. I met and fell in love with Jasper around this time, even though now that I look back, 13 is a young age to "fall in love". Jasper was all I ever thought about throughout most of this phase, and being with him had me excited and I felt like he actually cared for me. I wore my hair long and down a lot. I also wore a lot of black because as happy as I was, my body was still an insecurity of mine. I always described myself of a mix between girly and tomboy at that age, and I didn't battle myself much at that point in age. 

Age 14:
This phase started a few months after I turned 14 until a few months after I turned 15. Jasper and I broke up, and that was around the time I started having trust issues. Most of my friends had left me at that point, and I turned to the 3 that stuck by me when everyone else left. I wore hats all the time in this part, especially fedoras. I started dating Devin after he helped me get over the relationship with Jasper and Dakota. My relationship was pretty good with him for the most part at this time. Derick and I have had a few passive fights at this point, but all of them we have long forgot about by now, and Derick was one of my best friends at this time. Delilah and I had a few fights during this phase, but our friendship didn't completely sever. I was still very insecure about my body, and was starting to be more concerned with my identity. I had good times and bad times in this part. Still kept my "somewhere between tomboy and girly" label, and I had my hair cut shorter during this time, so I had to deal less with the weight. 

Age 15:
This phase started in November of last year, and ended officially in May. I was very emotional, depressed, passive-aggressive, stubborn, and angry. My trust issues got increasingly worse at this age, and I was a lot more secretive, closed, and I had a lot of self-hate. I had a lot of hate for my body at this age, and my gaining weight wasn't helping. I started to scratch myself, and I had done a few things I regretted. I wanted nothing more than to be someone else, so I went for a short haircut and wore beanies and ties. I wanted to go for an androgynous persona, and temporarily a male one, but not because I was trans*, but because of a combination of all the cis hate on tumblr I encountered and remembering all the sexism I remembered getting as a kid combined with how much I hated who I was anyway. I also had a lot of affiliation with the LGBT community and I wanted to be one of them because I felt bad for all the hate they got, but I knew deep down I was hetero and cis. My relationship with Devin just went to crap, and one of me other friendships really severed and that's part of why I ended up developing so many trust issues and self hate to begin with. This phase ended immediately after Devin and I broke up. 

Age 16:
This is my current phase and I feel mostly a lot happier. I decided that whoever has a problem with me being female and straight can go screw off. I ended up getting my permit and actually started to see light and a future after the long months of feeling depressed and angry all the time. For as happy as I am, and that I am still kind, I still have my trust issues, and I'm not sure if i'll ever be in a relationship again for a long time. I hardly have any friends but it's a lot better having a few real friends than more friends who make me feel like crap. My life has been uneventful because of summer, but I can't wait to see what junior year has in store for me. I finally feel beautiful in my own body, and I feel like I can shine. I have had a few mood swings, but life isn't perfect, and I can accept that now. I am excited to see who I might crush on in my junior year because I know I haven't met them yet. I am currently trying to grow my hair out and do more stuff to just express who I really am and not hide behind baggy hoodies and loose beanies.